39 Week Update

So, I'm totally at 39 weeks today!! I really thought the little squirt would be out by now, but I was totally WRONG. She is VERY MUCH SO still in there....

I'm not trying to be mean to her before I even get to see her sweet little face, but seriously?! I have found myself talking to her constantly... even when I'm at home by myself. I say things like, "Oh, you don't have enough room in there? Well then, COME OUT!" or "Oh, I'm sorry you have to stretch right now. But I'm planning on staying in this recliner with my feet up. Sorry. If you were out here, I'd let you stretch all you wanted to on my lap."

I'm still very excited, of course. I can't wait to see her. After spending time with our niece, I just can't believe that that is what is in me right now! My niece was born at 39 weeks, so it's kind of weird to think about the comparisons.

I did have an appointment last week. Aside from the naked toddler in the waiting room... yeah... whole 'nother post there..... it went well. The doctor did check me (finally) and said that my cervix was pretty hard but that she could get a fingertip in it. Is that supposed to be some sort of joke? Like, I'm just going to tell you this so you stop freaking out about being pregnant, but really I'm typing in my little laptop that you are sealed as tight as a pickle jar. I don't really understand how for the longest time everyone said I was softening up, but then she throws out "hard." Maybe compared to where she thought I should be? I don't know. Freakin' doctor. So, she had me schedule my appointments for this week and next. Next week's appointment is on my due date, so hopefully we'll have SOME progress by then.

This is kind of embarrasing, but whatev -- it's all for Lillian to read when I'm too old/tired to tell her about what a pain she is. Since she has dropped, my lower abdomen has become really soft. Like, I don't even feel pregnant below my belly button. I just feel fat. And because it is so loose now, it just hangs there... because my upper belly is hard as a rock and keeps it hanging out farther than comfortable. Anyway - I started noticing that I was getting really sensitive on my lower abdomen. And if I wore pants that didn't have a full panel, the waistband would make a MAJOR indent on my stomach. I started checking it every night to see changes. It is like I have cottage cheese under my skin... gross, I know. I thought, well, crap, now I have like, fat deposits or something, on my belly. Lovely. But when I asked the doctor about it, she laughed. Laughed!! Ugh. It hurts sooo bad. I didn't not want that reaction, but was happy to hear that I am swelling so badly that water has started to collect in my abdomen. So what I am feeling in that "cottage cheese" area is actually water pockets. Gross, still, but at least it will go away, where fat would be MUCH harder to get rid of.

Speaking of swelling: ugh. That's all I have to say.

Next appointment is on Thursday. I haven't been having any contractions, so don't hold your breath... I'm certainly not.

38 Weeks!

Here we are: 38 weeks!! I'm sooo pumped to see my beautiful little girl. Especially since on our 38 week mark, July 14th, my first niece arrived! She is just so beautiful, content, and just such a good baby all the way around. I hope Lillian takes a hint when I hold her cousin and oh and ah over what a good baby she is.... yeah. right.


I was able to stay the first night at the hospital after niecy arrived with my sister-in-law. (Bro-in-law had to work, poor guy) So, I was there to help SIL get the baby fed, changed, and back to sleep. I didn't sleep much. :) But I made up for it the next day with a 6 hour nap. It was totally worth it though. I had a few reservations about being able to handle a new born at night with Brandon. And, as I told him yesterday, I know we'll both be exhausted and probably short with one another, I think we'll do great. Not the best example, but I remember watching an episode of Jon and Kate Plus 8 and Kate said something like, "We may not talk to each other in the nicest way, but we get the job done and no one's feelings are hurt." That was when they got along... btw. :) That's kind of the way Brandon and I are. We may say things, but are in complete understanding that we are both stressed/tired/want to get the job done quickly.

I'm actually really looking forward to the way our relationship will change with Lillian here. It's already helped us communicate our needs and feelings better. With his blood sugars basically determining his mood and my pregnancy hormones determining mine, we've gotten a lot better at admitting fault and apologizing -- something we just ignored before. I'm sure it will be a struggle -- I don't want to sound like I expect the perfect baby and life with hubby after birth -- but I can't help but have confidence in our relationship that we'll only grow stronger.

FULL TERM, BABY!!

First of all, let's all take a second to recognize what a horrible mother I am by not posting this exciting milestone post on the actual day that marked 37 weeks.

Done?

OK - yesterday was 37 weeks! Although I was over the top joyous, I had the attitude of ... well I can't even think of something that has as bad of an attitude as I had. Maybe a 9 month pregnant lady who was hot, sweaty (despite air conditioning and showering), had a messy house, did not sleep the night before, had diarrhea, and who threw up cherry limeaide and chocolate chips... at one time?

However, today is MUCH better. I am really REALLY into the nesting right now. I didn't realize it as much before. I went shopping today and got storage containers and whatnot for all her things to be in the kitchen and bathroom. I came home and, even though I was sweaty, I put it all away. I went grocery shopping, too. And enjoyed it. AND was nice to people! Not something that really happens very often.

On my way home, I was thinking that we still had just a few things to get done before she can come.
1. Dresser must be put together for her room.
2. Amazon still has to deliver breast pump, storage bags, and new camera.

When I got the mail today-- all of our things were here from Amazon! (Luuuuuuve that site, btw) And the dresser will be put together tonight .... if I have anything to say about it. :) Love you, Brandon!

So... to summarize: Lillian can come out any time now.