39 Week Update

So, I'm totally at 39 weeks today!! I really thought the little squirt would be out by now, but I was totally WRONG. She is VERY MUCH SO still in there....

I'm not trying to be mean to her before I even get to see her sweet little face, but seriously?! I have found myself talking to her constantly... even when I'm at home by myself. I say things like, "Oh, you don't have enough room in there? Well then, COME OUT!" or "Oh, I'm sorry you have to stretch right now. But I'm planning on staying in this recliner with my feet up. Sorry. If you were out here, I'd let you stretch all you wanted to on my lap."

I'm still very excited, of course. I can't wait to see her. After spending time with our niece, I just can't believe that that is what is in me right now! My niece was born at 39 weeks, so it's kind of weird to think about the comparisons.

I did have an appointment last week. Aside from the naked toddler in the waiting room... yeah... whole 'nother post there..... it went well. The doctor did check me (finally) and said that my cervix was pretty hard but that she could get a fingertip in it. Is that supposed to be some sort of joke? Like, I'm just going to tell you this so you stop freaking out about being pregnant, but really I'm typing in my little laptop that you are sealed as tight as a pickle jar. I don't really understand how for the longest time everyone said I was softening up, but then she throws out "hard." Maybe compared to where she thought I should be? I don't know. Freakin' doctor. So, she had me schedule my appointments for this week and next. Next week's appointment is on my due date, so hopefully we'll have SOME progress by then.

This is kind of embarrasing, but whatev -- it's all for Lillian to read when I'm too old/tired to tell her about what a pain she is. Since she has dropped, my lower abdomen has become really soft. Like, I don't even feel pregnant below my belly button. I just feel fat. And because it is so loose now, it just hangs there... because my upper belly is hard as a rock and keeps it hanging out farther than comfortable. Anyway - I started noticing that I was getting really sensitive on my lower abdomen. And if I wore pants that didn't have a full panel, the waistband would make a MAJOR indent on my stomach. I started checking it every night to see changes. It is like I have cottage cheese under my skin... gross, I know. I thought, well, crap, now I have like, fat deposits or something, on my belly. Lovely. But when I asked the doctor about it, she laughed. Laughed!! Ugh. It hurts sooo bad. I didn't not want that reaction, but was happy to hear that I am swelling so badly that water has started to collect in my abdomen. So what I am feeling in that "cottage cheese" area is actually water pockets. Gross, still, but at least it will go away, where fat would be MUCH harder to get rid of.

Speaking of swelling: ugh. That's all I have to say.

Next appointment is on Thursday. I haven't been having any contractions, so don't hold your breath... I'm certainly not.