So, just like every Tuesday morning, I flipped our daily calendar that has some blurb about our growing baby to the next week. 32!! Aaaah! I can't believe we have only 8 weeks until our due date. :/ Nervous? Yes. Excited? Yes. Hot? ... Yes.
Luckily, this week was the last week of school. So, I've been able to enjoy sleeping in and catching up on some zzz's while sitting either in the air conditioned bedroom or under the fan in the living room. It's been really nice to just do what needs to be done and then enjoy relaxing and feeling my baby move around inside.
It's amazing how much I have depended on these movements to not only keep my paranoia down, but also to just fall completely in love with this baby. I firmly believe that she can feel my emotions. When I am happy, she kicks around. I have visions of her giggling and flailing her little arms and legs in excitement. When I am sad, she kicks, but not as hard. I can see me being in a sour mood and her coming up. hugging my leg, and saying, "I love you, Mommy." It's like that soft little kick is her way of saying that it'll be OK. Don't worry - I still love you. I also have noticed that when the dogs get excited and loud -- so does she. And when she hears Brandon's voice -- especially in the morning while I'm still in bed and he kisses me goodbye and in the evening when he gets home from work and she first hears him -- she moves like a wild woman. It makes me so happy to know that she already knows her Daddy's voice and that she loves him, too.
This week's birthing class was on pain medication during labor and interventions (vacuum, forceps, manually breaking the water, etc.). I certainly did (and still do) have an open mind to pain medication. And although Brandon was leaning towards none-- he wasn't the one pushing her out! I was nervous to make any big statements one way or the other... you just don't know how things are going to turn out. But after hearing the information that the class offered, paired with my own research, I am pretty determined to do this without medication. I think it is important to experience this event at least once. Maybe my mind will change with baby #2. And I didn't like all the maybe's the information presented. I didn't like the idea of making the choice of an epidural and then not having any other options (like different positions, walking, etc.). So, then I was leaning towards analgesics, which are basically just to take the edge off. But then you run the big risk of being mentally drowsy and out of it. That is something I certainly don't want to be while bringing my baby in the world. I'm certainly OK with a local anesthetic in the case of tearing or an episiotomy. I mean, it is not something that will effect the baby and it will occur only if the need arises.
Like I said, I'm still keeping an open mind. But once I set my mind to something, I pretty much stay that way. I am looking into other relaxation methods and will hopefully find something that will work. Even though I had a pretty bad attitude about this class, it's been really good for us. It has gotten us to start talking about things we probably would have made spur of the moment decisions on.
I am trying to gain the courage to talk to my doctor about our birthing plan. I mean, I know people do this all the time, but I feel silly telling the doctor what I want. Although, it is something that needs to be done, because, ultimately, I DO want it MY way. So, that is our #1 topic for today's appointment --- which I will update you on after!
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